Monday.

I'm very sleepy. Just two more hours of work but I wanna go home already and fall asleep!!
I had a great weekeend, I went to pride and had a blast with my friends I hella needed that. Met new people n was complimented all night. i love San Francisco!
I've been thinking a lot lately about getting more tattoos and I really want to. One thing I also started thinking was people who get their significant other's anem on them. ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED?? Who the fuck honestly thinks that this is a good thing in a relationship?? Everyone I know who has done this isn't even with the person anymore. The thing is that they do it within MONTHS of meeting that person. If you've been together for forty years ok sure but even then its questionable. I dunno what's wrong with everyone they're just asking to break up. I dunno that's my opinion. I will get a face portrain fo Marilyn Manson a million times over getting Danny's name tatted on me or who ever I'm with.

Itchy.

So I know I don't write as often now n I guess it's cuz so much is goin on?? We're thinkin of miving into a safer neighborhood n I'm excited and nervous?? I hope that they keep me at the job that I'm at n I really like it there too evryone is so nice and friendly but I guess they have to because they deal with meth n heroin withdrawals?? But either way they are very sweet ladies and I really like it there. But all I can do is hope that they see the awesomeness in keeping me around!
I've come to realise that I've gained weight n I'm not trying to be a total douche who blames other substances for their own faults but it did start to take place when I quite smoking a few months back....I have relapsed and have a pack of cigarettes in my car as we speak but I really don't want to start up again...And the weight...Its noticeable that I have gained it and I know I can shed it off but I don't know what holds me back....I like being a think girl and I have always looked this way but I think right now I'm at an uncomfortable image of myself...Like I take pride in being a bigger girl but right now its not cute big anymore...Hahahha I never make sense but if I lost maybe twenty or thirty pounds tope I'd be pretty damn happy with myself N still be a "big" type of girl but I like it the way and yeah I like women like that too...Curves are in man...Not blobs though there is a difference lol.
I'm itchy as hell...Stupid sun burn.

You don't see me...

I have been feeling very...Unsteady lately...I dunno how else to better describe it but I feel like I constantly have someone holding my throat in their hands and they won't let go...A feeling of suffication and being very unsteady. I hope that I am not sick but we will have to see.
I was in South City for the weekend and I love going back home and knowing that my family does enjoy my company...there is no better feeling. My sister has pneumonia and I am pretty worried so maybe thats hwere this uneasy feeling is coming from. I really would not want anything bad happening to her and I just dunno what I would do if the worse were to happen. I think I'd go crazy or kill myself...I love that little brat as if she were my own and it tears me that her mother is a tad irresponsible. But I do love my mom more than she thinks, she just has a lot to learn about being a mother and just in general...She's like a thirteen year old girl.

Suuuunday.

Life is pretty crazy...It just id right??
I've been readin more and more and I gota say it's been opening up my views on how others see the world.
This book im reading "Tweak" is about a local San Franciscan who is addicted to pretty much evry drug he does...He talks about how he likes being high all the time despite having to have sex with men in exchange for drugs, sleeping on the streets, never eating and such and such...That what else id life for?? It's just funny to me how others view their lives and the world.
I think life is what you make of it....If thats how you're happy, then ok go for it just don't destroy those around you.

Hot like pancakes....

I'm getting used to the beautiful everyday weather of San Jose and I must say, I like it :) Yesterday was nice after work Danny and I shot down to Barnes and Noble and I really got inot the book I picked up....I need to start reading again I feel smart when I do lol....It's just very hard for me to be really into the book I read and weird enough, what keeps me interested are stories about trauma and tragedies...True stories too...It makes me think about my past and that humans can survive through life's tragedies....It's something really amazing to me.
I like my job...I realllly really do....I'm at work right now and I'm filing but have acces to just sit here and surf the web as well. Everyone is super friendly here too :)
My apartment feels like home now...I like coming home to my sauna apartment...I wouldn't have it any other way...I must say life is pretty sweet right now!

Finally!!!

I'm finally home in San joSe permanently...for the time being anyway lol.
I started a new job by Cynthia's house on Tuesday and I must say, I like it! It's for a non profit organization that helps people with substance abuse and I must say I really enjoy being there. We are getting ready for a women's conference taking place tomorrow and I'm excited to be a part of it.
Today they had me in the youth sid e of the building where all the minors with issues come in and holy shit....These kids are extremely bored because all they talk about is scoring a cigarette or ditching school and showing off how many times they have been to juvi. Really that's what's cool now?? Shit man I guess so, I have never hung out with people so maybe that's why I look at it funny.
Anyway, now the whole South City visiting is the way it should...I visit on weekends :) And that's what I will be doing tomorrow night to hopefully see my grandpa in Santa Rosa Saturday of course with some more family :)
Life is good right now.

Happy Birthday Ivette :)

Had quite the good weekend!! Went to a Warriors game on Friday with Mary Anne and her bro and Danny of course...It was great!! I had so much fun and definately something me and Danny had to do. While at the game, Jp and Jenna met us up and it was hella chill. Saturday was awesome. We went on a trail hike and holy jesus I can still feel that shit in my legs!! Lol fun fun though then we chilled with my cousin that night. Yesterday was verry chill most of the day and then Jesus invited us to a bbq and it was good :)
I finally landed a job in San Jose, granted its a two month contract but that will give me enough time tyo fing a more permanent position so from here till June, I'll be ok I'm sure :)
It's Ivette's Birhday today...Hapy Birthday beautiful ^_^